Over the years, Wil wrote various poems about people in his life, whether they were friends, strangers, lovers, or family members. These were always meant as a tribute to those people and the impact that they'd had on his life. At times, Wil's opinions of those people may not have been entirely correct, and sometimes, there are negative observations. But in general, the tone of the poems is intended to be one of admiration for the differences among all humans, celebrating their uniqueness. Here are some of those poems.
MY BROTHER IN THE LORD
About: Wesley Michael Ramon and Matthew Wesley Lawrence
May 17, 1989 (age 16)
You’re my Christian brother, i love you with all my heart
when you need some help, i’ll gladly do my part
i’ll stand beside you, even when we’re all alone
i’ll be your brother, when all the rest have gone
You’ve shown love to me, in a way no one else has
All i can do is thank Him, for purposely crossing our paths
i’m your brother - i love you
we can stand together - just us two
when you talk to me - all you say is true
you’ve supported me - i’ll stand in the gap for you
Yes, you've failed me before, and i know i’ll fail you,
Yes, we'll disagree sometimes, and we'll argue too, but we’ll always draw close again, when the battle’s through i know that if we’re together, we’ll make it through we’ll pray together, and for each other i love you, ‘cause you’re my Christian brother (repeat chorus)
i’ll stand by your side - please, stand by mine When we fight satan - we’ll be side by side i’ll watch your back - you cover me we’ll make it through - just wait and see (repeat chorus)
(Back to the top of this page) THE GOATEE MAN About: Matthew Wesley Lawrence
April 27, 1990 (age 17) There’s this guy I know, his name is Matt He’s not very dumb, and he’s not very fat Now and then he burps, now and then he sings When he’s bit by a bee, he feels a slight sting There’s a few words he likes to say
Every chance he get, every day
“I caught a cricket once”
I killed all its sons
Then when I was done
I set it free to run
It was so much fun
(a hamburger, with the buns) buns buns
the cricket had the runs
He’s a goatee man, a goatee man Oh, baby, he’s a goatee man He has no plan, for his life span He doesn’t have a friend who’s name is Dan He lives in a can, has an electric fan His music has been banned His mind has been canned The Gap has been spanned On day he will land (on the moon) He eats from a spoon He sings the looney tunes (repeat chorus) (Back to the top of this page) THE FRIED CHICKEN About: Lisa Hickman
April 27, 1990 (age 17) I know this girl named Lisa I know this girl named Lisa I need a word that rhymes with Lisa not a word that rhymes with Eugene Her pool is full of chorine ‘sposed to make it clean Her pool is quite a scene Her mind is in her body Both of them are rotting She hates going jogging on Wednesday, her spleen starts clogging When she swims she wears little floatees She never ever had a goatee at least not yet maybe to win a bet Her pool’s a little wet It’s the best she could get Ever since we met She’s my little pet catch a fish in a net go fly in a jumbo jet Her penguin is in debt That’s why it died That’s why she cried Then her pool dried Then her chicken fried And she ate it. (Back to the top of this page) HE BEASTLY SONG About: Les Guilliams
May 1, 1990 (age 17) There was this guy named Les, made some leather boots He lived off of crickets, and lots a’ roasted roots He lives for the fun of it, has no purpose at all He has funny red hair, doesn’t ever comb at all Wears a funny green jacket - never ever tries to shave Everybody laughs at him, but they all think he’s brave You see, les is the Door - Need I tell you more? He has to live for nothing but the Doorway And the people that go thru every Day If you go through the door, you may not come back If you ever try, you’ll catch a lot o’ flak Things have gone in - never have returned If you ever try you’ll really get burned Don’t you ever try - you’ll really get spurned And you life maybe rudely overturned You see, Les is the Door - Need I say more? He has nothing to live for but the Doorway And room that is thru it, across the way He never caught a cricket But when he caught it, it died He buried in the ground, outside It’s a sad ending, to a beastly song, and now this song is getting much too long, (so, bye!) (Back to the top of this page) KRIS About: Kris Burkholder, fellow student at Wil's high school
May 4, 1990 (age 17) Kris is this guy, last name’s Burkholder if you look at him, your feet get colder (and your great-grandmother’s flowers get older) His hair is weird, but so is mine, so who cares at all i see a big, fat, obese rat behind that wall i smell a rat, things are getting kinda fishy the scum between your toes is gettin’ kinda squishy Kris, Kris, how did you miss What a neat guy, this Kris (People say he’s gay, i know he’s not that way) (Maybe in May) After it’s all over, he’s a cool guy a little weird, but so are you and i. (Back to the top of this page) ELVIS ANGEL About: Molly "Elvis" Trosdale
May 8, 1990 (age 17) Elvis, O, great Elvis, shake that pelvic pelvis Oh, you do it so well, you just can’t be from hell What a heavenly pelvis, that girl called Elvis She’s my Elvis angel, from heaven on high She’s back again, yeah, to take us for a ride She’s got the hair, she’s got the pelvis She’s just gotta be that guy Elvis Some call her “Molly”, but the name Elvis makes her jolly Where did the name come from? From the deranged mind of someone Could it have been Matt? Well, i’ll agree with that He’s definitely deranged, his brain has the mange. One day he saw her pelvis, and coined the term Elvis She does it so well, she just can’t be from hell She’s my Elvis angel, shakes her pelvis for me She’s back again, yeah, already older than three She’s got the hair, she’s got the pelvis and there’s no way in the world you could say that she’s not Elvis “You ain’t nothin’ but a hot dog, eaten all the time You ain’t never been a good to me, y’ain’t no friend o’ mine.” (Back to the top of this page) YOU BRING ME PEACE About: Holly Urban and Wesley Ramon
July 15, 1990 (age 17) I write to you of my troubles, I speak of my trials I like to tell you when I’m down You smile, and tell me to smile too, saying “It’s okay” You like to remind me of the day I’ll get a crown When sorrows overtake me and I lash out in anger And I try to hurt someone close You’re no “fairweather friend”, you love me the same Even when it hurts the most And you bring me peace, you bring me peace I am comforted when you are near to me And you bring me joy, you bring me joy I see your love for me, and I have to rejoice And you bring me love, you bring me love You’ve taught me about the love from above And you bring me peace There’s times when evil rises against me and I see the temptation and want to bow You pray me through, and tell me it’s wrong but assure me that you’d love me anyhow Then cowardice entices me, and carelessness too Angry, jealous lips spit forth bitterness But from your heart comes acceptance and love Your hurt, bleeding heart shows forth forgiveness And you bring me peace. . . (Back to the top of this page) OF WESLEY, A KNIGHT OF OLDE About: Wesley Emm Arr Punisher
("Wesley Emm Arr Punisher" was a character in a fictional story that Wil wrote when he was young. The character was obviously based on his close friend, Wesley Michael Ramon. This poem was actually written about the character, not the person)
Aug. 10, 1991 (age 18) Warrior was he, and roughly clad His skin was dark, his heart was glad With piercing eyes and lengthy hair With muscles hard, and wife so fair He hefted sword that none could lift Then, shield stalwart, and arrow swift Yes, he was known to fight true well When all his men beside him fell His horse was white, a stallion strong It bore him thru the raging throng He rode upon his stallion, yes And then dethroned the country’s best Upon his feet, might quick ran he And so surpassed all rivalry Earthly masters? Nay, he had none ‘Xcept in this world he followed one He pledged his life, his wealth he left To follow one whom he called Jef Friends they had been, since meeting first For each other they fought the worst Then high rose Jef, in leading men Along with him, Sir Wes his friend Now lands they rule with friendly hand While Wesley wars, and Jef commands Wesley listens with willing ears But no other on earth he fears One more ruler Sir Wesley heeds But this One lives above the trees “Light” is His name, also the “Door” The “Way”, the “Truth”, and many more More knowledge and more pow’r he holds. And when in hearts, He makes men bold. (Back to the top of this page) KARISA ("I never knew her last name.")
Sept. 6, 1999 (age 26) On a whim She came into my life And I let her Small of frame and Large of smile I liked to make her laugh until the tears ran down Her exquisite face Brought joy to mine, where No joy had dwelt For some time Someone’s daughter, someone’s sister, someone’s friend She might have been my lover in another life And that’s where she went Maybe there, in that next world, they will understand her “I’m not sure; I don’t know; I guess I never noticed it ‘til I was fucked in the head” Were some of her last words to me Words that haunt me now that she’s gone on How we walked and talked, it’s still with me How we touched, and looked into each other’s eyes Both of us finding safe haven there together when both of us Had known worse And the world will never know just how glad I am that I was able To be just what she needed for a short time Because I know she was for me Karisa, maybe I will see you Again If not, then Goodbye and Good luck. (Back to the top of this page) DON & CAROLINE’S About: The two people in the title (last name unknown)
April 4, 2000 (age 27) Caught up in the here and now, forgetting about being stranded And a smiling face across the pool is a welcome sight Curling smoke arranges itself in the sun’s morning rays Or hides in the corners, darkly awaiting new breath A quickly forgotten joke hovers, apparent in the laugh lines The white lines, the safety lines, the lines on a new page And it’s about time this old book had a new page Beer in three flavors goes down with salted peanuts and Burger King wrappers clutter the table and the black tile counter But we’re looking at the sun-drenched nipples instead Hearing the clack of billiard balls in the other room, no Not the room with the giant TV and heated massage chair Or the room with the tanning bed, where there’s a waiting list A stimulating conversation, a titillating view As long as you can still get in touch with someone called “you” (continued on April 9, 2000, 20:00 hours) You have to be invited to walk through the door And you have to be approved if you want to stay All decent people are accepted and only the rude are turned away Don is the don, but he can be your friend or he could be your father Caroline lives life with a smile and a bad neck, and she’s someone you can’t bother Sleepy, wobbly, or bloodshot, you’ll have a good time Letting life slide by and ignoring everybody’s crime You’ll go back even if it takes a while and you’ll Breathe a sigh of relief when you walk through the door
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HE ENJOYED IT (ODE TO RANDY) About: Randy (last name since forgotten)
Sept. 13, 2000 (age 27) Flailing through life Mouth open wide Brain unattached But enjoying it. Setting your sights On the ultimate ride Reaching for the skies And enjoying it. See through to the soul Heart spread open wide Climbing out of a hole And enjoying it. Interrupting life Still out, causing strife The past will take its toll But you’ll enjoy it. When you’re finished with your role And the grave is open wide The epitaph says, with a sigh: “He enjoyed it.” (Back to the top of this page) GOOD OLE CITY SLICKER (ODE TO MARK) About: Mark Alan Hurst
Sept. 29, 2000 (age 28) Well, he still defies definition But then, I have this premonition That he likes it that way Born ‘n’ raised out in the country Lived and worked in the shitty city And some say he lost his way You might be a slave, but he works harder You could be a genius; we say he’s smarter Living to the tune of a thumping techno beat No question; he’ll give his all for a friend Generosity and loyalty without end Look! There he is, walking on the street You might find him watching the history channel With a beer in one hand And two empty bottles on the table Or at a pay phone, arguing about a credit card (“You have to understand, Mr. Hurst, we only
issued you this card so we could
fuck up your life. . .”)
He’s the good ole country boy, only with math skills, compact discs and digital cable
He’s the sophisticated city man, only with a quick smile, a loyal heart and a forgiving attitude
He can change the subject before you hear the first part The heart of a little boy wrapped in an old man’s scars. (Back to the top of this page) My father, the strongest man I know Nov. 7-9, 2000 (age 28) His hands were strong I felt them as he held me, carried me Heard the grinding as he loosened rusty bolts Watched as he built barns, fences, Our lives Felt the restraint as he disciplined And knew we were safe In his hands His heart was strong I watched him cry, and felt the hot tears While he forgave me, inspired me I knew he would give his money, his advice, His time Take a bullet if need be For any of us Right in the heart His mind was strong As he taught me, corrected me, surprised me With what kinds of things he knew How he could figure things out so quickly Amazed us What use was there for a science book? When my dad was around, Speaking his mind His back was weak And laid him out more than once, I guess We weren’t sure how to handle that But he always seemed to get back up (So far) More than anyone else, he could push himself With the entire world Riding on his back. (Back to the top of this page) Till The Day I Die (Ode To My Mother) May 11, 2001 (age 28)
("There’s so much more I could say… Smart shopper, Master’s degree, home school teacher, giver of well-thought-out advice, the best family cook in the world – bar none, THE BEST MOM IN THE WHOLE GOSH DARNED WORLD! I love you, Mom.") ‘For richer and poorer’ My mother has lived and loved Every moment in her life greatly prized From Arizona’s deserts To Oklahoma’s wilderness And the rest of the world, besides She walked through the largest cities in the world With wide-eyed wonder and girlish delight Although she never feared returning home To fight the good fight Where she raised four wild children With much grace, patience, optimism, And a firm hand The Home that others envied Where she held us, loved us, And was always ready to understand Where she cooked, cleaned, washed and sprayed And worked, and prayed, studied and stayed And few were the times we appreciated The sacrifices she lovingly made Where her gardens grew green And fed us many times But don’t give credit to a “green thumb.” She worked, slaved, persevered And brought the flowers and vegetables up No matter how hot the sun She was an example to us, and to others A counselor, a teacher, a fount of wisdom, and a friend A sewer, a mender, a sower, a reaper, A rock in times of trouble And she will be, until the end Although I am trying, I cannot express in words How she was tough as nails Yet as soft as the petals of a rose Not given to flights of fancy, She taught me the value of researching my opinions These are things only a mother’s son knows Sometimes, I wish I was still that little boy, playing outside So I could come to her with my skinned knee, and bruised pride So she could hold me as long as I needed her to Hearing her prayers over me as I cried That’s what I’ll never forget Till the day I die